Izzy for VP ;)

I am in a constant battle between myself and my own doubt.

I think everyone is smarter than me, so if someone ever tries to prove me wrong, I believe them.

I think everyone is better than me, so when I’m playing soccer and someone screams “ball,” “Izzy pass to me,” “mark her,” I freak out and automatically try to listen, because they obviously know what they’re doing and I just don’t.

I think everyone else knows what’s best, so I constantly ask for others’ opinions. This past week I had to make an NHS video as to why I would be a good vice president, and I ended up making SIX different videos based on what my peers’ opinions were, just to choose the first… the one that I wanted.

The thing is, every single time I have doubt and someone tries to prove me wrong, I’m actually the one that’s right. Or when someone tells me to “pass the ball” or whatever, I had something way better in mind that could have brought us a goal, but that split second of doubt caused me to rethink my actions.

This past week, a girl was sobbing on my soccer team; yet, no one else even noticed or bothered to care, and some of the girls were even talking trash about her. I stepped up, and even though I was supposed to be somewhere right after practice, I stayed to talk to her and tried to help deal with what she was going through, but what she said at the end is what made me truly realize that I would make a hella amazing vice president… when she said, “I would vote for you if I could, because I’ve never seen anyone that’s cared more.”  

This week has honestly been a struggle, as I’ve been trying to decide what to run for, how to make a video, how to campaign; but it has also taught me something: to listen to my OWN heart, my OWN mind, and whatever I THINK is best.

DON’T DOUBT YOURSELF. That’s the best advice I can give you. Go with what your heart is telling you…. listen to your gut, because if you don’t, you’ll constantly be fighting your mind.

Everyone has doubt, and it’s because we strive for perfection every single day, hoping to magically obtain this concept and dodge all mistakes; I hate to break it to ya, but that’s just impossible. So even if I lose this vp thing, yeah it would suck, but I will know that I tried my very best—it’s not me who would make a bad vp at all, everyone else is just going to have to deal with the unfortunate loss, because they will be missing out on an outstanding leader.

So it turns out that the “technologies that undo [our] capacities to think” are actually our fellow peers and the people who surround us--stop doubting yourself, there’s no need. Doubt will only bring you down in the world. It will mentally change your ability to think for yourself. Just do what you want to do, and I promise that you won’t regret it.